Ever since I got home, I've been rather sad and down. I don't feel like my heart is at home, I think it's still in Ada, with all the cows and corn. I never thought I would miss it so much, but I really do. Even if it was just a bunch of farmland with only a McDonald's, a Rite Aid, a bar and the crappiest cell phone reception I have ever experienced. I even miss those nasty swans that bit the back of my thigh, and I hate those damn birds.

I miss everyone so much. Even though I was only there for two weeks, it amazes me even, we became a family. They were the best family, all loving, each and every one of them. We were a funny family, consisting of 17 Americans and 35 Japanese. There is not one person I will ever forget or stop loving. They became a huge part of my heart. We teased, cried, in some cases fought in the hallway at 9:00 o’clock in the evening by running down the hallway head on. XD Some of my fondest memories are of them. I wish we never had to separate, I wish we could have all stayed together. I tried to tell myself it wasn’t goodbye, just I will see you later, but it didn’t stop the tears. It doesn’t even stop the tears now.

The first week I got home from camp was absolutely awful. I actually hated just sitting around, I missed working hard to finish my homework, I missed reading the Hagakure at 7 a.m. for my History class cause it was the only time I could muster myself to actually open it. I missed getting up at 6 a.m to get ready for breakfast just so I could go see and smile at my new friends I had made the day before. I missed whispering Ayaka’s name and her doing the same back and listening to her giggle. I miss everything. I would give just about anything to go back and just do it all again, over and over again.

What kills me the most is, I even miss that noxious smell that assaulted your nose as you walked by that dish belt in the cafeteria. I remember plugging my nose and whispering in Japanese to Shunsuke every time we passed it that it smelled. XDD I will always remember that word, cause we used it so much.

Sorry guys, I just kinda needed to vent.